Sleeping Sickness

I awoke
Only to find my lungs empty
And through the night
So it seems I'm not breathing
And now my dreams are nothing like they were meant to be
And I'm breaking down, I think I'm breaking down

And I'm afraid
To sleep because of what haunts me
Such as living with the uncertainty
That I'll never find the words to say
Which would completely explain
Just how I'm breaking down


Someone come and
someone come and save my life
Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead
But now it's like the night is taking sides
With all the worries that occupy the back of my mind
Could it be this misery will suffice?


I've become
A simple souvenir of someone's kill
And like the sea
I'm constantly changing from calm to ill
Madness fills my heart and soul as if the great divide could swallow me whole
oh, how I'm breaking down


Someone come and
someone come and save my life
Maybe I'll sleep when I am dead
But now it's like the night is taking sides
With all the worries that occupy the back of my mind
Could it be this misery will suffice?

ooh my life

Someone come and
someone come and save my life
(save my life)
Someone come and
someone come and save my life
(save my life)
Someone come and
someone come and save my life
Could it be this misery will suffice?

Maybe thats how it will go, or maybe im should think it will never show
maybe thats somehow youll know, or maybe im beleiving it will blow.
maybe its rotten to think wrong, but right to see past might.
maybe i wont be bused and ill be propely used.
its all in the head. im yours still and thats just zen

I didn't expect to walk into that. Those eyes staring right at me.
Right back to me until I immediately look down and walk on.
I just wanted to stop and talk, be a man. But...
Guilt instantly, ashamed beyond belief.
What do they think?
What would I say?
I probably look like I creep.
I feel like one
How do I fix that.
How do you not yell yourself that.

They still don't know.
I don't want to be the one left.

I want to be apart of that.
The feeling I'm not and the feeling I can't is most.

Save your money
This beer will help

Bounce bounce bounce goes the ball.

Have you told them yet?

Zzzzzzzz zzzzz

I'm not your toy boy!
Don't just rape me
Don't expect everything.
Right then and there.
Don't push, don't tease.
Don't control, yell or hit me.
Don't be like a child.
Don't point the finger
Point it at yourself
Don't bite the hand that feeds you

Alcohol.
Rape
Rowdyness
maturity
Don't force me!

a lot for you, I will I will.
Need I say more
Don't mistreat this!
Don't tell me that.
Act upon this.
Your better then all that!

See it see it see it yes

Act upon this
Your better then that

As you snore....zzz zzzz zzzz
You may not be in this bed tonight.
You've hurt deep inside, tonight I might not sleep a sight.

I forgive, I forgive.
So don't yell at my heart for trying to love best.
No grudge, no grudge.
That would never be for the best.

With what we've done and where about to do.
A journey of journeys.
To this
Admit! 
You F@#% - ?*@d!
Mistake...yes
bad timing....

Don't ever pull a stunt like that on me again.
Don't treat me like the victim when the narcissist wants the Dickens.

Don't bite the hand that feeds you.

I'm a soft boy, but I'm a man inside.
Respect me please and disrespect me not.
Don't bite the hand that feeds you

I'm loving you best cause I think a rapest knows less.

Maybe these words make no sense.
Or one word sums up one great pence!

Zzzzzz zzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzz!!!!!

"It's All Understood"

Everyone laughed at her joke As if they'd nevereven hearditbefore And maybe theywere truly amused But every word that she spoke was a bore And maybe it's because theyhad seen The previews on the TVscreen Well this part is good and that's well understood So you should laugh if you knowwhat I mean

But it's all relative Even if you don't understand Well it's all understood Especially when you don't understand Then it's all just because Even if we don't understand Then lets all just believe

Everyone knows what went down Because the news was spread all over town And fact is only what you believe And fact and fiction work as a team It's almost always fiction in the end That contentbegins tobend When context is never the same

And it's all relative Even if we don't understand And that's well understood Especially when we don't understand Then it's all just because Even if we don't understand Then lets all just believe

I was reading a book Or maybe it was a magazine Suggestions on where to place faith Suggestions on what to believe But I read somewhere That you've got to beware You can't believe anything you read But the goodBook is good And that's well understood So don't even question If you knowwhat I mean

But it's all relative Even if you don't understand Well it's all understood Especially when you don't understand And it's all just because Even if we don't understand Then lets all just believe

But there you go once again You missed the point and then you point Your fingers at me And say that I said not to believe I believe I guess I guess it's all relative

Thank you

Thank you
Thank you for being the partner I wanted for so long. Thank you for this relationship with you. Thank you for caring about us. Thank you for working hard at your job. Thank you for making me feel the way I do, especially about you. Thank you for the angry times. Thank you for giving me as much as you do. Thank you for remembering things. Thank you for your moods. Thank you for being pleasent around me. Thank you for offloading your negative energy even if its at me. Thank you for seeing how much effort I put in, and thank you for the amount you put in. Thank you for telling me how much I mean to you. Thank you for not underestimating me. Thank you for speaking to me, even if its down. Thank you for catching me on dumb things I do. Thank you for being bossy. Thank you for being controlive. Thank you for not lieing, but protecting me. Thank you for all the pain we've been through. Thank you for helping me see I'm a child too. Thank you for spending so much time with me when you can.
Thank you for putting me first in your life.
Thank you for appreciating all I do for you. Thank you for telling me your problems and still having time to listen to mine. Thank you for doing as much as I do for you. Thank you for making me feel needed! Thank you for talking a lot since I don't. Thank you for paying attention, so much attention to me. Thank you for helping me clean up. Thank you for being like my mum at times, I need it. Thank you for pushing me to do things. Thank you for all the silly mistakes, its helped me understand we are not perfect. Thank you for being the most supportive person in my life to date. Thank you for being proud of me and the things I do and will accomplish. Thank you for remembering things even I forget. Thank you for listening to me complain. Thank you for being so considerate towards my feelings. Thank you for Sharing same opinions and not so same opinions. Thank you for expressing your values to me and sharing the ones we can. Thank you for being a very feminine girl around me. Thank you for expecting things from me, I can do it. Thank you for picking me up. Thank you for opening up to me. Thank you for asking attention from me. Thank you for getting angry at me. Thank you for my moods. Thank you for everyday and every night. Thank you for finding a page full of words I do for you to make you feel good about me.

Thank you for loving yourself so much

Thank you for being you most of all.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I don't try hard enough. I'm sorry I don't listen to you. I'm sorry I don't give you your needs. I'm sorry I'm not as social as I could be. I'm sorry I'm not social at all for you and around people with us. I'm sorry I am full of emotions and feelings. I'm sorry I'm deep. I'm sorry I'm personal. I'm sorry I don't accept you for you. I'm sorry I hurt you unintentionally. I'm sorry I wet you in the shower. I'm sorry I shower you with too much love. I'm sorry I rely on you. I'm sorry I always want comfort and security. I'm sorry I treat you like my mum. I'm sorry I'm insecure. I'm sorry the shower is not hot enough for you. I'm sorry I don't think about your feelings. I'm sorry I don't have the same values as you. I'm sorry I'm not giving you your dreams. I'm sorry I hate myself so much. I'm sorry I'm a downer. I'm sorry I can't be more friendly. I'm sorry I can't joke around enough. I'm sorry I take everything to heart. I'm sorry I don't go out of my way enough for you. I'm sorry that I'm not sorry enough. I'm sorry I don't please you enough. I'm sorry I don't put enough effort into things. I'm sorry I don't plan enough. I'm sorry I get really angry. I'm sorry I make you angry. I'm sorry I give up. I'm sorry I feel hopeless. I'm sorry for being different. I'm sorry for trying to change you. I'm sorry for not changing. I'm sorry I don't come see you more often. I'm sorry I use you. I'm sorry I make you frustrated. I'm sorry I upset you. I'm sorry I don't give you time. I'm sorry I'm not patient. I'm sorry I'm older then you. I'm sorry I disagree. I'm sorry for my head. I'm sorry I don't comfort you enough. I'm sorry I lie to you. I'm sorry I don't kiss you and cuddle you enough. I'm sorry I don't tell you I love you enough. I'm sorry I have little money. I'm sorry I live in a shed. I'm sorry for being me. I'm sorry I don't do more things you would like me to do. I'm sorry I don't cook for you enough. I'm sorry I'm not a good provider. I'm sorry about my jealousy. I'm sorry I look at things differently. I'm sorry I'm not enough for you. I'm sorry I love you so much and put you first always. I'm sorry I don't love you enough or put you first enough. I'm sorry I drink. I'm sorry if I give you false hope. I'm sorry about this letter.

I'm sorry I'm not good enough