the poison will run deep

so to recap in words of sorrow and depression, my life has been fuckin hell for well, 2months ago for the past 12 or so months.
feelings of bitterness, confusion, anger and disastor from a blissful enthusiasatic feeling of love that meerly was a rich dark curtian of painful lesson in realizing a true poteinial of a this weak induvidual that didnt just not believe but putdown in beleiving at times to see only one true depressing path was the only way in surving the harshes steps of lifes greatess un appreticated journey.

this to me is just a letter of bitterness to YOU, You the one that challenged me witht the posion you seeped in my vains, the posion that will meerly become lighter and lighter in the suppressed feelings i have, the posion you injected and say so much as to drian it from my system. for only a blade so sharp could perform that task, that is how my brian felt for so long in perciving a never ending battle of good vs evil.

but little did i see the energy that i possed, the energy that surrounds me, that Binds me, with beings and with destinys!
for this is another step in the lifes of each other, and the life of a new creation that has come to exsite in this life brought by so us, or you as we only know atm.

so it seems to me as to easy for you atm, a breze, a choice that only you had a desicion in for the better of yourself not another, when there is always 2 envoled in dancing the tango! so the bitterness, the shame, the anger, and mostly the pain of tryin to face a battle one way but progress in another since there was know enthusiasm of conformer together on one such path, for the pain and suffering had deepind too much, and the posion was strong enough to take over the mind and emtion of such 2 human beings.

Fate was decied for both partys, no longer should 2 such induvidauls even bother on a journey of lessons anymore together, for the posion just churned more and more. and as those feelings demintiond, other feeling reconstructed in a stronger form inside of the anomallys, the energy was back.

journeys will never stop and this one will be a long tested adventure of crisis and comittment for such a newly young sole, but i will do everthing in my power, with my energy to be with the one htat shares my blood, i will not give up and will not lt the posion stir in my system no more, for you are nothing nomore and will have nothing to do with me or my life with this young soul of mine, not you, not your family, the times i share you will have nothing to do with for i will never touch or even lay eys on that posion ever for it will always stir in me how this came to be, the inconsiderate, irrasponsible actions of one such human.

to conclude this is all a lesson for both, and learning in the right matter will alreat awareness better for each for i beleive if there is no awareness then all that has happened is useless.

what has happened has happened and i progress better everyday now that i have faced such a journey, and that i have found enlightment to calm my thoughts and feelings of negativity. for new journeys and lessons come along , new dreams, new passions and new love

my life is great atm even in such a stale waiting period of life, till the outcome has been laid by the finally test shall our lifes be tested, and that, that i am ready for

for my PLANS will not fail and you will never get in my way of our lifes anymore, because to me, YOU wont be there, just like i will probaly not be there for yours!!!

till then i will wait for my moves are made and this time you will fall into my check mate laid for you.
i will not let you mistakes affect me anymore, now go, live how you so want to live now and i shall do the same, since everything is bliss for me atm

i am that i am
i am not the body
i am not the emotions
i am not the thoughts
i am not the mind

I AM THE SOUL