ISFP Relationships
ISFPs are warmhearted, gentle people who take their commitments seriously, and seek lifelong relationships. They are very private people, who keep their true feelings and opinions reserved or hidden from others. This may cause them to constantly defer to their mates in their intimate relationships, which may cause problems if their mates are not extremely aware of the ISFP's feelings. Some ISFPs who are in the habit of not expressing their needs and feelings find themselves in situations throughout their life where they feel overshadowed, overlooked, or even "tread upon" by others. Highly practical and cynical by nature, these feelings may cause the ISFP to become bitter, and to either give up on their relationships, or to start using their relationships for their own personal gain. Although this problem is observed sometimes in the ISFP type, it does not seem to be present in those ISFPs who consistently express their feelings to those closest to them. These ISFPs have a very positive, warm outlook on life and love, and are not as likely to find themselves in relationships where they are taken for granted or taken advantage of. ISFPs go to great lengths to please their partners. They're very loyal and supportive, with a deep capacity for love. They detest conflict and discord, and highly value being seen and understood for who they are. They need space to live their lives in their own unique way, and will respect other's need for space.
ISFP Strengths
Warm, friendly and affirming by nature
Usually optimistic
Good listeners
Good at dealing with practical day-to-day concerns
Flexible and laid-back, usually willing to defer to their mates
Their love of aesthetic beauty and appreciation for function makes them likely to have attractive, functional homes
Take their commitments seriously, and seek lifelong relationships
Likely to value and respect other's personal space
Likely to enjoy showing their affection through acts and deeds
Sensuous and earthy
ISFP Weaknesses
Not good at long-range financial (or other) planning
Extreme dislike of conflict and criticism
Focused on enjoying the present moment, they may appear lazy or slow-moving at times
Need to have their own space, and dislike having it invaded
May be slow to show their affection with words
Tendency to hold back their thoughts and feelings, unless drawn out
May become overly cynical and practical
ISFPs as Lovers
"To love means to open ourselves to the negative as well as the positive - to grief, sorrow, and disappointment as well as to joy, fulfillment, and an intensity of consciousness we did not know was possible before." -- Rollo May
ISFPs are warm and giving people, who have a depth of emotion and caring which is not often obvious to others, except those who know them extremely well. They are usually intense people, who experience their emotions on an intense level. Although they may appear to be light-hearted, they are in fact extremely serious, and take their relationships seriously. Unlike other SP types, people with the ISFP type desire and seek lifelong, committed relationships.
ISFPs may have a problem with communication. With Introverted Feeling dominating their personality, they are more vulnerable then most to being hurt. Perhaps because of this, they tend to hold back part of themselves from others, and do not always say what they think or feel. This is especially true during conflict situations, which the ISFP abhors more than anything in the world. Confrontations and arguments are very difficult for the ISFP to deal with. They feel personally threatened in these situations. If the ISFP falls into the habit of not communicating their feelings with their partner, this could cause serious problems in the relationship over the long haul.
Sexually, the ISFP approaches intimacy with complete attention, seriousness and depth. They experience lovemaking through their senses, and welcome the chance to interact with their mate at this level. They are not likely to express their feelings verbally, believing that actions speak louder than words.
ISFPs need positive affirmation to be happy and feel good about themselves. They need to be praised, although they are usually uncomfortable with "gushy" praise. The greatest gift their partners can give them is the expression of their affection and admiration.
ISFPs as Parents
"You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth...
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable." -- Kahlil Gibran
ISFPs enjoy their parenting role, and take great pride and comfort in their children. Most have a special affinity with babies and young children, and form bonds with their children when they are very young. They are very laid-back parents, and are not likely to have highly defined expectations of their children. They will gently guide their behavior, and suggest a particular direction, but their own respect of the individual psyche will cause them to be quite easy-going and non-demanding as parents. The ISFP is likely to treat their children as individuals, and encourage them to have their own role in the family.
ISFPs love to have fun, and live in the current moment. All ISFPs have a bit of little kid inside themselves, and they love to play games alongside their children. They're special affinity towards nature and animals makes them likely to lead their children in fun outdoors activities.
ISFPs are not likely to provide a very structured environment for their children. They are also likely to have a problem with disciplining or punishing their kids. The gentle manner and kind heart of the ISFP makes it hard for them to make others unhappy - especially their own children. However, structure and discipline are important for growing children. If the other parent encourages and promotes structure, and is able to administer discipline when necessary, the parent combination may work very well without there being an obvious lack of structure. However, if the other parent is also not strong with structure or discipline, this is an area which needs to have special attention. Growing children do not have the experience to decide on their own the difference between Right and Wrong. They need to have barriers set down in a tangible way, to help them decide.
ISFPs like to show their love in deeds rather than words, which is manifested in their doing a lot for their children. They may lavish them with gifts on Christmas day, or go out of their way to do special things for them.
The ISFP is a service-oriented person, who defines their personal worth in some part by how happy they make others. This is typical of people with the Feeling preference. The special potential problem that ISFPs face is their service-oriented attitude combined with their habit of not expressing their own needs and feelings. This combination causes some ISFPs to get taken for granted. If this happens frequently to an ISFP, they may become bitter and angry. They think of themselves as victims, and may erect barriers to keep out those who have hurt them. This may be a serious problem if the ISFP parent feels that their children are taking them for granted. The best defense against such a situation occuring is for the ISFP to get into the habit of verbalizing and communicating their needs.
ISFP parents will be loyal, dedicated and self-sacrificing to their children until they leave home. When the kids have left the nest, the ISFP will enjoy their time alone to do things for themself. If the ISFP has not allowed themselves to become victims or victimizers in their life, they will be very good parents, and will be remembered fondly and affectionately by their children.
ISFPs as Friends
ISFPs are able to get along with most of the other personality types, although they tend to be reserved around those they don't know well. They will enjoy spending time with others who share their interests, and who understand and accept the ISFP for who they are. They greatly value their space and autonomy, and appreciate other's respect for that.
The ISFP is not likely to have much patience or tolerance for those who are strongly Judging. ISFPs celebrate their own uniqueness, as well as everybody else's, and don't appreciate being judged harshly for their differences.
In work settings, the ISFP is likely to get along with most everyone, unless someone inhabits their space too much, in which case sparks may fly. Generally, the ISFP is kind-hearted and generous with those they care about, and makes a true-blue friend.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
I am that i AM
ISFPs generally have the following traits:
Keen awareness of their environment
Live in the present moment
Enjoy a slower pace - they like to take time to savor the present moment
Dislike dealing with theory or abstract thought, unless they see a practical application
Faithful and loyal to people and ideas which are important to them
Individualistic, having no desire to lead or follow
Take things seriously, although they frequently appear not to
Special bond with children and animals
Quiet and reserved, except with people they know extremely well
Trusting, sensitive, and kind
Service-oriented; they're driven to help others
Extremely well-developed appreciation for aesthetic beauty
Likely to be original and unconventional
Learn best with hands-on training
Hate being confined to strict schedules and regimens
Need space and freedom to do things their own way
Dislike mundane, routine tasks, but will perform them if necessary
The ISFP is a very special individual who needs to have a career which is more than a job. The middle of the road is not likely to be a place where they will be fulfilled and happy. They need to have a career which is consistent with their strong core of inner values. Since they prefer to live in the current moment, and take the time to savor it, they do not do well with some of the more fast-paced corporate environments. They need a great deal of space and freedom if they are going to function in their natural realm of acute sensory awareness. If they give free reign to their natural abilities, they may find a wonderful artist within themselves. Almost every major artist in the world has been an ISFP. Since the ISFP is so acutely aware of people's feelings and reactions, and is driven by their inner values to help people, the ISFP is also a natural counselor and teacher.
The following list of professions is built on our impressions of careers which would be especially suitable for an ISFP. It is meant to be a starting place, rather than an exhaustive list. There are no guarantees that any or all of the careers listed here would be appropriate for you, or that your best career match is among those listed.
Possible Career Paths for the ISFP:
Artist
Musician / Composer
Designer
Child Care / Early Childhood Development
Social Worker / Counselor
Teacher
Psychologist
Veterinarian
Forest Ranger
Pediatrician
Keen awareness of their environment
Live in the present moment
Enjoy a slower pace - they like to take time to savor the present moment
Dislike dealing with theory or abstract thought, unless they see a practical application
Faithful and loyal to people and ideas which are important to them
Individualistic, having no desire to lead or follow
Take things seriously, although they frequently appear not to
Special bond with children and animals
Quiet and reserved, except with people they know extremely well
Trusting, sensitive, and kind
Service-oriented; they're driven to help others
Extremely well-developed appreciation for aesthetic beauty
Likely to be original and unconventional
Learn best with hands-on training
Hate being confined to strict schedules and regimens
Need space and freedom to do things their own way
Dislike mundane, routine tasks, but will perform them if necessary
The ISFP is a very special individual who needs to have a career which is more than a job. The middle of the road is not likely to be a place where they will be fulfilled and happy. They need to have a career which is consistent with their strong core of inner values. Since they prefer to live in the current moment, and take the time to savor it, they do not do well with some of the more fast-paced corporate environments. They need a great deal of space and freedom if they are going to function in their natural realm of acute sensory awareness. If they give free reign to their natural abilities, they may find a wonderful artist within themselves. Almost every major artist in the world has been an ISFP. Since the ISFP is so acutely aware of people's feelings and reactions, and is driven by their inner values to help people, the ISFP is also a natural counselor and teacher.
The following list of professions is built on our impressions of careers which would be especially suitable for an ISFP. It is meant to be a starting place, rather than an exhaustive list. There are no guarantees that any or all of the careers listed here would be appropriate for you, or that your best career match is among those listed.
Possible Career Paths for the ISFP:
Artist
Musician / Composer
Designer
Child Care / Early Childhood Development
Social Worker / Counselor
Teacher
Psychologist
Veterinarian
Forest Ranger
Pediatrician
The Artist
The Artist
As an ISFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in via your five sense in a literal, concrete fashion.
ISFPs live in the world of sensation possibilities. They are keenly in tune with the way things look, taste, sound, feel and smell. They have a strong aesthetic appreciation for art, and are likely to be artists in some form, because they are unusually gifted at creating and composing things which will strongly affect the senses. They have a strong set of values, which they strive to consistently meet in their lives. They need to feel as if they're living their lives in accordance with what they feel is right, and will rebel against anything which conflicts with that goal. They're likely to choose jobs and careers which allow them the freedom of working towards the realization of their value-oriented personal goals.
ISFPs tend to be quiet and reserved, and difficult to get to know well. They hold back their ideas and opinions except from those who they are closest to. They are likely to be kind, gentle and sensitive in their dealings with others. They are interested in contributing to people's sense of well-being and happiness, and will put a great deal of effort and energy into tasks which they believe in.
ISFPs have a strong affinity for aesthetics and beauty. They're likely to be animal lovers, and to have a true appreciation for the beauties of nature. They're original and independent, and need to have personal space. They value people who take the time to understand the ISFP, and who support the ISFP in pursuing their goals in their own, unique way. People who don't know them well may see their unique way of life as a sign of carefree light-heartedness, but the ISFP actually takes life very seriously, constantly gathering specific information and shifting it through their value systems, in search for clarification and underlying meaning.
ISFPs are action-oriented individuals. They are "doers", and are usually uncomfortable with theorizing concepts and ideas, unless they see a practical application. They learn best in a "hands-on" environment, and consequently may become easily bored with the traditional teaching methods, which emphasize abstract thinking. They do not like impersonal analysis, and are uncomfortable with the idea of making decisions based strictly on logic. Their strong value systems demand that decisions are evaluated against their subjective beliefs, rather than against some objective rules or laws.
ISFPs are extremely perceptive and aware of others. They constantly gather specific information about people, and seek to discover what it means. They are usually penetratingly accurate in their perceptions of others.
ISFPs are warm and sympathetic. They genuinely care about people, and are strongly service-oriented in their desire to please. They have an unusually deep well of caring for those who are close to them, and are likely to show their love through actions, rather than words.
ISFPs have no desire to lead or control others, just as they have no desire to be led or controlled by others. They need space and time alone to evaluate the circumstances of their life against their value system, and are likely to respect other people's needs for the same.
The ISFP is likely to not give themself enough credit for the things which they do extremely well. Their strong value systems can lead them to be intensely perfectionist, and cause them to judge themselves with unneccesary harshness.
The ISFP has many special gifts for the world, especially in the areas of creating artistic sensation, and selflessly serving others. Life is not likely to be extremely easy for the ISFP, because they take life so seriously, but they have the tools to make their lives and the lives of those close to them richly rewarding experiences.
Jungian functional preference ordering:
Dominant: Introverted Feeling
Auxilliary: Extraverted Sensing
Tertiary: Introverted Intuition
Inferior: Extraverted Thinking
As an ISFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in via your five sense in a literal, concrete fashion.
ISFPs live in the world of sensation possibilities. They are keenly in tune with the way things look, taste, sound, feel and smell. They have a strong aesthetic appreciation for art, and are likely to be artists in some form, because they are unusually gifted at creating and composing things which will strongly affect the senses. They have a strong set of values, which they strive to consistently meet in their lives. They need to feel as if they're living their lives in accordance with what they feel is right, and will rebel against anything which conflicts with that goal. They're likely to choose jobs and careers which allow them the freedom of working towards the realization of their value-oriented personal goals.
ISFPs tend to be quiet and reserved, and difficult to get to know well. They hold back their ideas and opinions except from those who they are closest to. They are likely to be kind, gentle and sensitive in their dealings with others. They are interested in contributing to people's sense of well-being and happiness, and will put a great deal of effort and energy into tasks which they believe in.
ISFPs have a strong affinity for aesthetics and beauty. They're likely to be animal lovers, and to have a true appreciation for the beauties of nature. They're original and independent, and need to have personal space. They value people who take the time to understand the ISFP, and who support the ISFP in pursuing their goals in their own, unique way. People who don't know them well may see their unique way of life as a sign of carefree light-heartedness, but the ISFP actually takes life very seriously, constantly gathering specific information and shifting it through their value systems, in search for clarification and underlying meaning.
ISFPs are action-oriented individuals. They are "doers", and are usually uncomfortable with theorizing concepts and ideas, unless they see a practical application. They learn best in a "hands-on" environment, and consequently may become easily bored with the traditional teaching methods, which emphasize abstract thinking. They do not like impersonal analysis, and are uncomfortable with the idea of making decisions based strictly on logic. Their strong value systems demand that decisions are evaluated against their subjective beliefs, rather than against some objective rules or laws.
ISFPs are extremely perceptive and aware of others. They constantly gather specific information about people, and seek to discover what it means. They are usually penetratingly accurate in their perceptions of others.
ISFPs are warm and sympathetic. They genuinely care about people, and are strongly service-oriented in their desire to please. They have an unusually deep well of caring for those who are close to them, and are likely to show their love through actions, rather than words.
ISFPs have no desire to lead or control others, just as they have no desire to be led or controlled by others. They need space and time alone to evaluate the circumstances of their life against their value system, and are likely to respect other people's needs for the same.
The ISFP is likely to not give themself enough credit for the things which they do extremely well. Their strong value systems can lead them to be intensely perfectionist, and cause them to judge themselves with unneccesary harshness.
The ISFP has many special gifts for the world, especially in the areas of creating artistic sensation, and selflessly serving others. Life is not likely to be extremely easy for the ISFP, because they take life so seriously, but they have the tools to make their lives and the lives of those close to them richly rewarding experiences.
Jungian functional preference ordering:
Dominant: Introverted Feeling
Auxilliary: Extraverted Sensing
Tertiary: Introverted Intuition
Inferior: Extraverted Thinking
Thursday, October 28, 2010
never say never.....
feels great to be told your pretty much a problem
feels great not being able to change them, yet you try and change everyone elses
feels stupid when your the dick and you cause all the problems
feels great not being wanted, or used, or... not attractive no more
its a really strong pain crying in agony "why cant you change"
let got of your baggage, let go of your negatives.
in the end it all dies to only be reborn with the same set of rules and lessons
still makes a tear, still creates a feeling, itchs a worry, ends with a heart broken
did i ruin it from the start with words of love, have a played with your emotions, have i used you for what i never wanted to, are we meant to be, am i what you believe you are. am i the too much person. why? i beleive you are what ive needed, the good and the bad, the ups and downs, the love and the fear. im a pussy and dont think i could cope with a lose again, yet you say you could, i know you could.
will you get sick of me and not vice versa, will you give up and get annoyed with me . are we too alike. do we have to much emotion and pity towards each other.
are we sad insecure people or mad stressed induviduals with to much to lose and not enough in gain. are we constantly on the move for security. are we just using each other ?
all i want to do is cry my eyes out, but i just cant.
maybe tonight, under my pillow. maybe inside my heart. that which drives me in insantiy, that feeling i never want to happen again.
should i just end what is feeling enebatable or conitue with what is a marrage, oversome to reach what i so desire.
im fucking so scared right now, right at this point . once again.
i dont think ill sleep tonight.
and not a single thing i could do to bring you to me and make this better will help atm.
what a wonderful feeling.
feels great not being able to change them, yet you try and change everyone elses
feels stupid when your the dick and you cause all the problems
feels great not being wanted, or used, or... not attractive no more
its a really strong pain crying in agony "why cant you change"
let got of your baggage, let go of your negatives.
in the end it all dies to only be reborn with the same set of rules and lessons
still makes a tear, still creates a feeling, itchs a worry, ends with a heart broken
did i ruin it from the start with words of love, have a played with your emotions, have i used you for what i never wanted to, are we meant to be, am i what you believe you are. am i the too much person. why? i beleive you are what ive needed, the good and the bad, the ups and downs, the love and the fear. im a pussy and dont think i could cope with a lose again, yet you say you could, i know you could.
will you get sick of me and not vice versa, will you give up and get annoyed with me . are we too alike. do we have to much emotion and pity towards each other.
are we sad insecure people or mad stressed induviduals with to much to lose and not enough in gain. are we constantly on the move for security. are we just using each other ?
all i want to do is cry my eyes out, but i just cant.
maybe tonight, under my pillow. maybe inside my heart. that which drives me in insantiy, that feeling i never want to happen again.
should i just end what is feeling enebatable or conitue with what is a marrage, oversome to reach what i so desire.
im fucking so scared right now, right at this point . once again.
i dont think ill sleep tonight.
and not a single thing i could do to bring you to me and make this better will help atm.
what a wonderful feeling.
Congratulation!
well done, you did it !
you won once again, for all mankind
for your own blood, your shadowed role figure
you put a huge smile on your face.
with joy and glee, bow for yourself pig.
without seeing everyone else's aggravating plea.
you keep marching forward, saying and changing what must be.
And you dont care, and you'll never learn.
and everyday you end up more like your his little young own.
so it dosent's matter, and you must not really care.
for even when you can see the pain, it takes you ages to be ashamed.
grovel in sorrow and cry in confused pain, you cant take your win back.
next time if i were you id think about how to attack.
daddy will be proud of you.
fuck head!
you won once again, for all mankind
for your own blood, your shadowed role figure
you put a huge smile on your face.
with joy and glee, bow for yourself pig.
without seeing everyone else's aggravating plea.
you keep marching forward, saying and changing what must be.
And you dont care, and you'll never learn.
and everyday you end up more like your his little young own.
so it dosent's matter, and you must not really care.
for even when you can see the pain, it takes you ages to be ashamed.
grovel in sorrow and cry in confused pain, you cant take your win back.
next time if i were you id think about how to attack.
daddy will be proud of you.
fuck head!
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
The Sound of Stillness
Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...
Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...
Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...
Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...
Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...
Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...
Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...
Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...
Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...
Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...
Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om...Om.............
This to shall pass
because i CAN create what i so desire...
Monday, October 25, 2010
branches and flowers
Whats wrong with me?
am i loosing all my lemon's again?
are they rotting into a smelling mold
am i destroying what bitter freshness i have left
am i not being careful.will this mold engulf me again
lose what fresh lemons i have left on this tree
all cause of me....
and then my bird and butterflies will disappear
every rotten lemon and broken branch,
is the bringing of new flowering buds, a emerging lemon.
this tree must keep standing tall and strong
and my butterflies and bird will always stick by
never leaving me stand alone.
am i loosing all my lemon's again?
are they rotting into a smelling mold
am i destroying what bitter freshness i have left
am i not being careful.will this mold engulf me again
lose what fresh lemons i have left on this tree
all cause of me....
and then my bird and butterflies will disappear
every rotten lemon and broken branch,
is the bringing of new flowering buds, a emerging lemon.
this tree must keep standing tall and strong
and my butterflies and bird will always stick by
never leaving me stand alone.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Darling darling darling !!!
You are everything i have ever wished for in a man.
It's not just your beautiful blue eyes flecked with green and gold.
Its not your strong arms and shoulders, or your gorgeous smile.
Nor is it your wonderful laugh or your hot sex.
It's everything about you. Your kind words, gentle touch and caring affection.
I love you Jesse hands.
And i want to keep you forever xxxxxxx
Thursday, October 21, 2010
An act of Self Awarness
Is it jealously or invidiousness ?
whatever it is... why do i let you eat me?
Why am i perceiving something to be bigger then it really is
why such a little tale made into such a huge feeling
so is this love?
cant it be focused on what IS then on what was!
can it be a bright free life of now then a dark deep attachment of then
what if new means new! then old is passed through to the new.
but to recreate the old....no, to learn for the new
we are all made of the same ingredients
she is made of the same
Dont go back there....
whatever it is... why do i let you eat me?
Why am i perceiving something to be bigger then it really is
why such a little tale made into such a huge feeling
so is this love?
cant it be focused on what IS then on what was!
can it be a bright free life of now then a dark deep attachment of then
what if new means new! then old is passed through to the new.
but to recreate the old....no, to learn for the new
we are all made of the same ingredients
she is made of the same
Dont go back there....
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
boy compilements girl, girl priases guy, guy loves woman, woman's in love with man
your such a wonderful kind hearted human, i just want to cry when you tell me upsetting past and persent issues you have, i want to help you as much as i can.
you have such a warm heart and i mean that with every breathe my life has, ill always be here to remind you that, i promise myself to help you keep smiling off how important and special you really are no matter what happens between us.
my heart will always have and share its love with you
unexplainable heart ting from heaps of love particles
you make me feel more alive and full of joy than i have since i was a kid
you make me happy a just cant imagine not wanting to be with you!
you deserve the very best, cause you are the kindest and most loving human i've ever met and i promise to always try my best for you.
any issues we ever face we will sort them out maturely so we keep working at it together, we a re a great team and a wonderful friendship, true love
i love you so friggin much, im aware and feel great and mature about us.
and you deserve a great person such as me and vice versa.
to face a repeat, or to fail at what we so desire, will not happen.
commitment <3
Thursday, October 14, 2010
waste
your fighting with yourself again, but you doing it pretty fucked up right now.
let it go.. whatever it is. and yet what you feel, is really something you dont know.
your pissing around, and you hurting the one you love.
straighten the fuck up....be a man
because whatever you are or doing aint helping, at all.
And because of that youve just made it worse...
keep cryin over your keyboard and you'll surely get somewhere.
too late now, youve fucked up. go to bed! waste
let it go.. whatever it is. and yet what you feel, is really something you dont know.
your pissing around, and you hurting the one you love.
straighten the fuck up....be a man
because whatever you are or doing aint helping, at all.
And because of that youve just made it worse...
keep cryin over your keyboard and you'll surely get somewhere.
too late now, youve fucked up. go to bed! waste
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Its Actually Really Simple Alex
its not just the simplicity of her body
the shinning light on her smile
the warmth of every hug
the depth of every word of emotion
it cant be the thought of every action
the thought of every feeling
the touch of those finger tips
and the charm of that laugh
a voice of a beauty
the passion for life
or the awareness of what gets in the way
the movement of every muscle
the spirit of a intelligent child
it is every little part of you ive never had
it is all of the emotional content
its the pleasure of your company
your relationship as my loving friend
1 month or 1 year
im glad i am right here
your make me feel complete
from a failing defeat
i will never give up, because i will not let go
i will always move forwards because you are constantly on the go
your kiss is a life, and i receive it as a mystical gift
It is the things in common that makes this relationship enjoyable, but it is the little differences that make it interesting
take my soft hands because with you and i will take yours with me were i go
believe and we will create a magical life together for us
Here and Now
I Love you alexandra staniland <3
"Is what I am saying loving, compassionate, kind, empowering, or insightful?"
the shinning light on her smile
the warmth of every hug
the depth of every word of emotion
it cant be the thought of every action
the thought of every feeling
the touch of those finger tips
and the charm of that laugh
a voice of a beauty
the passion for life
or the awareness of what gets in the way
the movement of every muscle
the spirit of a intelligent child
it is every little part of you ive never had
it is all of the emotional content
its the pleasure of your company
your relationship as my loving friend
1 month or 1 year
im glad i am right here
your make me feel complete
from a failing defeat
i will never give up, because i will not let go
i will always move forwards because you are constantly on the go
your kiss is a life, and i receive it as a mystical gift
It is the things in common that makes this relationship enjoyable, but it is the little differences that make it interesting
take my soft hands because with you and i will take yours with me were i go
believe and we will create a magical life together for us
Here and Now
I Love you alexandra staniland <3
"Is what I am saying loving, compassionate, kind, empowering, or insightful?"
Sunday, October 10, 2010
A Recipe for Success..... or Disaster
As the Apprentice leant over the simerring pot smelling the hot aromatic stock, the chef approached with his firm shoulders and glaring stance that even the stock freezes on sight.
"What have you got in there" he asked
"Why have you got so many onions in it"
"What is this on the side"
"Why is the garni to much"
" And have you stirred it, have you measured your vegs to your meat, have you coloured your meat before hand?"
"Why this, Have you that???"
All in such a sudden burst i lost in touch with reality, gazzed into nothing and shook in spite.unaware in what i was doing i burnt myself on the pots handle as the apprentice walked by my, grinning..
"OUCH"
"I , I ....
i have the main ingredents for the perfect stock chef" i said
the leek has been washed and trimmed down, using what was left from the soup.
the carrrots have been spared and some fresh for there was not enough.
the onions where peeled fresh today for the onion gravy next to it,
and the meat had been roast to a golden crunch and the jus poured into the pot of delicous flavour.
"Very well.. it dose smell fine"
i repleied to the chef. : i dont trust the other apprentice, i dont want him take take my recipe! i dont want him to steal what i have put so much love and energy into.
he can use when it needs to but when he just wants is another thing. it shits me off!
I hate him and dont trust him. iwant to be his friend but im just so paranoid.... or jealous
the chef looked back at me.
"you may have made this stock! you may have put all your hard work into it. you may have cared and shared your emotional passion for it . but its not yours, you only made it, you helpd it. what it dose now is up to it. understand it has feelings to, and if you dnt care for it with the love it truly needs then there is no point even starting with it".
"It is not just vegtables in a pot, it is not boiling water to colour. it is the flavour of life, the passion of the begining of food, and you created it. what it dose now is up to it. many will use it, touch it, taste it".
"You must remember the others, the other apprentice. even though you believe he stole your last recipe dosent mean he meant to, maybe the recipe wanted to be stolen. so you could create a better one. you cherished that recipe and with that you ad used and destroyed what flavor it had left.
use your hands and mind carefully, make what you create with gentle passion".
as the chef starred into my eyes more, deeply and my powerful.
"share and dont be greedy".
"give and you'll always get it back".
"do not let this recipe be taken away from you, used, stolen or disrespected
but share it with love and it will alwaysbe your recipe. you created it
as it created you. do not create the distraction, or even worse...lose it"
with a shocked glare of awareness stright from his eyes into mine, stright through to my nevous tenden in my brian sent a wave of emtion and care into every part of my body. love was felt and a power was gained deep inside my heart.
islowly looked away at the chef to the pot and felt it move inside, speaking to me .
then i looked back up at the chef, as he walked away i could feel what he meant
my awareness was lifted and my gift into myself progressd, i had been told what i needed.
The greatest recipes to life are MY own creations !!!
"What have you got in there" he asked
"Why have you got so many onions in it"
"What is this on the side"
"Why is the garni to much"
" And have you stirred it, have you measured your vegs to your meat, have you coloured your meat before hand?"
"Why this, Have you that???"
All in such a sudden burst i lost in touch with reality, gazzed into nothing and shook in spite.unaware in what i was doing i burnt myself on the pots handle as the apprentice walked by my, grinning..
"OUCH"
"I , I ....
i have the main ingredents for the perfect stock chef" i said
the leek has been washed and trimmed down, using what was left from the soup.
the carrrots have been spared and some fresh for there was not enough.
the onions where peeled fresh today for the onion gravy next to it,
and the meat had been roast to a golden crunch and the jus poured into the pot of delicous flavour.
"Very well.. it dose smell fine"
i repleied to the chef. : i dont trust the other apprentice, i dont want him take take my recipe! i dont want him to steal what i have put so much love and energy into.
he can use when it needs to but when he just wants is another thing. it shits me off!
I hate him and dont trust him. iwant to be his friend but im just so paranoid.... or jealous
the chef looked back at me.
"you may have made this stock! you may have put all your hard work into it. you may have cared and shared your emotional passion for it . but its not yours, you only made it, you helpd it. what it dose now is up to it. understand it has feelings to, and if you dnt care for it with the love it truly needs then there is no point even starting with it".
"It is not just vegtables in a pot, it is not boiling water to colour. it is the flavour of life, the passion of the begining of food, and you created it. what it dose now is up to it. many will use it, touch it, taste it".
"You must remember the others, the other apprentice. even though you believe he stole your last recipe dosent mean he meant to, maybe the recipe wanted to be stolen. so you could create a better one. you cherished that recipe and with that you ad used and destroyed what flavor it had left.
use your hands and mind carefully, make what you create with gentle passion".
as the chef starred into my eyes more, deeply and my powerful.
"share and dont be greedy".
"give and you'll always get it back".
"do not let this recipe be taken away from you, used, stolen or disrespected
but share it with love and it will alwaysbe your recipe. you created it
as it created you. do not create the distraction, or even worse...lose it"
with a shocked glare of awareness stright from his eyes into mine, stright through to my nevous tenden in my brian sent a wave of emtion and care into every part of my body. love was felt and a power was gained deep inside my heart.
islowly looked away at the chef to the pot and felt it move inside, speaking to me .
then i looked back up at the chef, as he walked away i could feel what he meant
my awareness was lifted and my gift into myself progressd, i had been told what i needed.
The greatest recipes to life are MY own creations !!!
Friday, October 8, 2010
Never give up!
CHARGE...
dont you dare get distracted
dont you dare let go
dont you dare surrender
dont your dare stop till you reach that goal!
you will make it in the end
you will find what you need to know
even if it dosent work out so well
you still need to learn how to know.
that you gave it all
you never backed down
that you fought with all your love
and you'll always have some thing good to show!
so smile in what you gave
and priase in what you were given
for this is not about a tradgic ending
because its all still the beautiful begining!
dont you dare get distracted
dont you dare let go
dont you dare surrender
dont your dare stop till you reach that goal!
you will make it in the end
you will find what you need to know
even if it dosent work out so well
you still need to learn how to know.
that you gave it all
you never backed down
that you fought with all your love
and you'll always have some thing good to show!
so smile in what you gave
and priase in what you were given
for this is not about a tradgic ending
because its all still the beautiful begining!
A letter to You !
Hey, hey you!
remember me, rememeber that time!
remember those feelings. those thoughts. those actions!
dont you remember who you are deep down!
you havent gotten any better, your just ignoring it with that big tough shell you think you have on now. you think you can get rid of me..... i dont think so!!
i'll always be hear to churn your shit, i'll be hear to remind you of how fukd you really are, how shit you have it, and how shit you gonna keep it and not be able to change it!
no future
you keep failing
always be a poor bum
never good at any one thing
your core is weak and i'll keep poking it till you finish that bottle into the hill
or stand in front of those bright 6am lights.
you think your the same as everyone else, with problems, feeling ,ect ect blah blah!
well your worse, real fukin worse.
people just treat you nice because because you cry so much inside that your not fukd.
oh by the way! you dont deserve her, she is so much better than you'll ever be. you dont deserve them! and you dont deserve him either!
yeah him....
you waste!
you ruined his life and you ruined hers
and you'll ruin hers to if you keep fucking up like you do!
pat yourself on the back mate, well done!
seriously, hurry up and do the world a favor, do you the favor.
im mean, dont even blog this cause no one gives a fuck buddy, you aint getting any more sympathy. you've used it all up. and your spiritual side isn't worth it, its just your weak cover up!. you'll never get to where you think your going.
take that knife of your arm and put it to use you pussy.
no one cares about how you think you care. your arrogant and up yourself and aint getting nowhere.no one understands you and the shit that comes out of your mouth!
not even your friends, which one of them you pretty much used! you waste!
i dont care how you think or feel, like literally
you are a disposable body and im just waiting for the next to come along
PS: FUCK YOU
remember me, rememeber that time!
remember those feelings. those thoughts. those actions!
dont you remember who you are deep down!
you havent gotten any better, your just ignoring it with that big tough shell you think you have on now. you think you can get rid of me..... i dont think so!!
i'll always be hear to churn your shit, i'll be hear to remind you of how fukd you really are, how shit you have it, and how shit you gonna keep it and not be able to change it!
no future
you keep failing
always be a poor bum
never good at any one thing
your core is weak and i'll keep poking it till you finish that bottle into the hill
or stand in front of those bright 6am lights.
you think your the same as everyone else, with problems, feeling ,ect ect blah blah!
well your worse, real fukin worse.
people just treat you nice because because you cry so much inside that your not fukd.
oh by the way! you dont deserve her, she is so much better than you'll ever be. you dont deserve them! and you dont deserve him either!
yeah him....
you waste!
you ruined his life and you ruined hers
and you'll ruin hers to if you keep fucking up like you do!
pat yourself on the back mate, well done!
seriously, hurry up and do the world a favor, do you the favor.
im mean, dont even blog this cause no one gives a fuck buddy, you aint getting any more sympathy. you've used it all up. and your spiritual side isn't worth it, its just your weak cover up!. you'll never get to where you think your going.
take that knife of your arm and put it to use you pussy.
no one cares about how you think you care. your arrogant and up yourself and aint getting nowhere.no one understands you and the shit that comes out of your mouth!
not even your friends, which one of them you pretty much used! you waste!
i dont care how you think or feel, like literally
you are a disposable body and im just waiting for the next to come along
PS: FUCK YOU
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Best Chocolate Cake!!!
Ingredients
55g cocoa powder
125ml boiling water
300g self-raising flour
¼ teaspoon salt
125g unsalted butter at room temperature
200g caster sugar
3 large eggs, beaten
1 teaspoon of vanilla essence
100ml milk
Prepare 3 20cm sandwich tins, buttered and the base lined with greaseproof paper.
Preheat oven to 190C (375F) gas 5.
Sift the cocoa into a heatproof bowl and stir in the boiling water to make a smooth paste. Let it cool.
Sift the flour, salt, and baking powder three times.
Put the butter into a bowl and using either a wooden spoon or electric mixer beat the butter until creamy. Thoroughly beat in the sugar, then the eggs and vanilla. Gradually beat in the cocoa mixture.
Using a large metal spoon, fold in the flour, alternating with some milk. Repeat this until the flour and milk are used up.
When thoroughly combined, divide the mixture equally between the three tins. Level the surfaces evenly.
Bake in the preheated oven for about 20mins, until just firm to the touch.
Turn onto a rack and leave to cool.
Icing for the layer cake
Ingredients
3 tablespoons cocoa powder
125ml of boiling water
15g butter at room temperature
1 tablespoon of maple syrup
1 egg white
200g icing sugar, sifted
To make the icing, sift the cocoa into a heatproof bowl. Add the butter and maple syrup to the bowl, then stir in the boiling water, and stir to make a thick, smooth paste.
Add to the mixture the unbeaten egg white, then using a wooden spoon or an electric mixer, gradually beat in the icing sugar to make a thin, smooth, spreadable icing.
Pour the icing mixture over the cake and spread it gently, so it covers the entire cake.
Chill for a little while in the fridge, until firm, then serve at room temperature.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Eyes
i cry because i fear, yet i fear to cry.
im scared to be alone, but alone when scared
loss is a loss, gain is a gain.
i'll never get what i had, but ive got what i have.
i do know i have a chance.
im scared to be alone, but alone when scared
loss is a loss, gain is a gain.
i'll never get what i had, but ive got what i have.
i do know i have a chance.
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