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In my hand i hold a letter, a letter that will determine my future
a letter i feel i already know the answer to, a letter i find to bitter feeling to open, this letter makes my insides cringe and churn.

feels my life is already laid out for me, there is no deciding what i can do now.

my heart is burning, burning with hate towards you.. because what i feel im looked upon at now is what was meant to become.. you tricked me, you used me and if i could take anything back it will be you.
everything we ever had i would. you poisoned me with a curse, or did i get offered the vile and drunk it myself.

i trusted a white princess to discover a black witch, my eyes hurt now.... the rain keeps falling, it will not stop any time soon.
will i keep falling, am i now that it is such a sign of reapetedness. am i destined to destroy myself and others. can i survive my own torment to peace another.

why do you do this? What can i make of me? and can i change what i believe so to be not to be?
i know better then anyone else
that the greatest recipes to my life, are my own creations. that i can make my desires happen.

just not at this point do i feel the need to, wallow is all i want to do....

act now or lose all scares me.

or keep believing and i might just receive it


no matter what my fear is

i am sad

i am lonely

i am happy i have you now...

i know and have learnt




the only way is
strength in myself

and self empowerment inside.