uneasy communication for the better

life seems to throw the unexpected of things to expect, or so i evaluate it as that, when maybe its really the beginning of some fantasy end and a reality of doomed start.

what?
what's really going through my head, is the sheer drop that has happened in such a life and the rise of a reality check to myself and those that matter to me.

Why?
because iniatally i decided to forget a important lesson of teaching the balanced a simple justification of what really is going on, such a thing i only need to learn and others seem to know the value of such a lesson.

When?
In the past three months i became a so called master of my inner self as a human, in touch with what is and excepted what was to be, how it was layed out as, why it is so, and when such a circumstance made its precinct to harness such a life form from a ever drumming sound into the mind.

who?
the victim of self realisation to ensure pure happiness and a enlightened life of constant exception into a every evolving world of emotional human beings every on the run by a voice plaguing the self conscious human mind that so rots us

How?
how is the part that starts it really. this is where the change recourse's itself from a manifested self consciously built up empire of indestructible emotional pressure that only a depressive self pitiless feeling of anxiety could attack - which it did.
to skip that part, change is now needed, reformation and endurance to take on a once cherished believe that enhanced the mind, powered the body and fuelled the ever fluctuation of needy feelings and fearfulness anxiety attacks.
that made me the better person i was and ,change.
as the clock turns 12'10 i shall put down these keys and pick up what i put down some months ago.
for what i forgot then is only helping me loose what i have now, something i do not intend for my life.
in 11 days, more. the words i so ever wish to be reminded, is that i choose you. for you ARE that better person, that ever evolving human being of positive energy, that person that constantly progress's the understanding and caring of another through communication. that dose what one must for them selves and the ones he cares for

anything else i could do?