you know i always thought guys were completely fucking useless
you see, some just follow there dicks now like its a fucking compass
and others, others let there marriage slip through your fingers
there are men today that dont know anything about women
so why are they still fucking alive!

The rest of us, we just try to do everything by the book.
and were the ones that get shafted!
We try to be what they want us to be.
we become reliable, mature, domesticated, and then what happens, there get bored.. that's what happens.

If all women really want is a pet, then why don't they just buy a fucking Labrador!

Ive had enough being torn to shit, lie down, rolling over and playing dead.
from now on, what you see is what you get!

i dont often post happy feelings about my life. and i was very close
till just now....
Best feeling in the world when you see your son, being held by your ex partners partner, and she doesn't even acknowledge you.....


there goes the spiral


and what do i do about it. nothing

im scared and ashamed
im angry and i dont want to fight.


i gave up a long time ago....

Ouchy

Well, ive missed you. ive missed you very much.
to much to a point my mind has not stopped thinking.
i have been going around and around, chasing your tale then chasing another.
now i dont have you no more. now i have you again.
hmm. what do i have here?

i have you once again :)
you are all i ever needed
but i forgot.

it quite funny after some time, looking at what was, and how it just is.
actually... it feels more intelligent.
seeing what you were and how you are now.
what was been and now is gone.
disconnect----

forgiveness, forgiveness, forgiveness.

oh how i would like some chocolate goodness.
god damit.

oh well.
i just dont want to become depleted :(

ha, lets go plant some needs and ask ask ask.