i know

i know why you do what you do.
I know why you party.
i know why you smile.
i know why your shy,
i know why your walled.
i know why you smoke and i know why you cry.
i know why you think to much and im pretty sure i know why your worried about life.
i know why you cant say help.

i know why you drink
i know why you cause of all the boys.
and i know why cause there aint many girls.

i know why your insecure.
i know why your lonely.
i know why you cant see the obvious.
i know why you cant love you..
i know why you only hate you

i know why you feel lost.
i know that feeling...

i know....
because ive been there.
and once again
im here once more.

beer se and rock and roll?

And it slowly creeps into my veins again.... the rotten smell of nicotine, the stickiness of thc, and the classy smugness of cheap wine and beer.
where is my master?

here we go again...

i am just another pawn to this world, with every inching step, with the breathe of little white lies, i am worse then you.
my smile and happiness is a cover for the reality of sheltered comfort, my looks and voice is but the lie of true denial.
my steps and big talk about procastination holds me to the truths, that i may never leave, that i may always be. just like my own.
my acceptance is holding to much of a indeciable young adults choosing a foretold fate.
my mind believes one
but my creation and choose has little say nomore.

whats bad is good and god is bad?
why?

may i leave this forbidden place of the mind set and further the outbreak of a formidable human of great pursuit..or will i not

millions

Millions of people never analyze themselves. Mentally they are mechanical products of the factory or thier environment, preoccupied with breakfast, lunch and dinner, working and sleeping, and going here and there to be entertained.
They don't no what or why the are seeking, nor why they never realise complete happiness and lasting satisfaction.
By evading self-analysis , people go on being robots, conditioned by their environment.
True self-analysis is the greatest art of progress.

Paramahansa Yogananda

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today

today.. today i lost a job, was late for a job, worked longer then the job expected and was late for a job interview.
i made fun of some friends, hanged out too long with some friends, and lost a friend.... my new car (old)

nice big old karma king hit maybe...

Fuck knows, the messages are clear but not, so what.
it is how it is

and if i fight that,
with my angry ego
my sad ego,
my crazy ego
or my depressed ego.

ill just suffer more...

soo, im going to wait right here and stay...


Positive

Thank you for today, thank you for stealing my car.
It will all be back for me again tomorrow

With gratitude
So be it
Omm

Maybe

She is absolutely amazing
Absolutely.... <3